long time no see

I am revving my engine. It's hard for me to write papers, especially when I live in this busy city and there are so many things to distract myself with and so many little details in my home of which I obsess over...and the rain is raining and the couch is calling and I just want to zone out in front of an old black and white movie.

I have to write a paper for my philosophy class which kind of makes me want to pull my hair out. One by one. Isn't that a disease? Anyway.

My nails have gotten too long. It's becoming difficult to type. You can always tell when the school year picks up because I'll chew my nails all off in order to type faster.

My philosophy paper is on love. More specifically, Plato's Symposium. I'm listening to sad love songs and putting my ear to the ground to try and figure something out. I chose to write about the discourse of Aristophones, which essentially states that the reason we seek out love is because we were once great big beings mushed together into one and then ripped apart when we got too strong and Zeus felt threatened.

Like this:



I loved that movie when I saw it in high school. I should rewatch it.

We are too nubile to take on this assignment. We don't really know love yet. Most of us are unbruised still.

My original thesis was going to be something about the "physical implications" that Aristophanes has "enumerated" within his discourse so as to illustrate the "tangible manifestations" or our "perpetual search for love." I think I'm going to change my thesis statement to "WHY?" instead.